well you refute my idea of race-castes being totalitarian but at the same you use the collective pronoun 'us' as being able to accomodate identity, which is ultimately an individual premise (i.e you prove my point). even if you subvert black/coloured into positive concepts when someone else adopts them it becomes an act of imposition. look at the failure of negritude when africa suddenly became a mother and the BLACK WOMAN was capitalized. your truth or positivity will not be that of the next woman/man. no matter how stereotype-breaking they are, they deny a human dynamism that can't be put into words because it pre-dates law and language. im not saying we all act the same but these race-castes are a low ceiling because they dont emerge out of a vacuum. they are formed by human consciousness and human consciousness as it is now can never be divorced from society (and will therefore always carry an undercurrent of shit). im not so much talking about behaviour as much as im talking about thinking, which is where the unconscious comes in. this is where we are all irredeemably sick, just by virtue of being raised within this shit. yes, you can fight whats been written on paper and screened on mainstream media, but do you know yourself beyond what others have said about you, whether you go with it or you go against it. this imposition can only lead to a repitition of whats happened. history is built on this shit. its cool if you don't agree with me, but im not making any excuses to you. i was only explaining myself to those i might have offended because i feel i owe it to them. and i listen to rap but im not a 'hip hop head' because honestly i dont know exactly what the f*** 'hip hop culture' is according to whoever coined it. as for my drinking being an excuse? that's not likely.
