its been a whole year since our last poets corner

uhh..wel...err...i really dont know if this is number 14 or 13 or manybe 12 but ill call it our 14th
any way let me start this
IT HURTSIT HURTS
KNOWING THAT YOUR HERE
BUT I CAN NOT JUST PICK UP THE PHONE
JUST TO TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU
IT HURTS......WORSE
WITH A BIT OF FEAR
COZ I GOT SOMEBODY WAITING FOR ME AT HOME
BUT ALL I DO IS THINK ABOUT YOU
IT HURTS WORSE THAN THE FIRST
AND I HAVE TO BE SINCERE
SINCE THERES
NO REASON TO PRETEND
I STILL MISS YOU
I WISH WE COULD TAKE BACK ALL THOSE WORDS
THAT OPENED UP WOUNDS AND LED MW TO CURSE
NOW I FEEL LIKE IAM CURSED
AND WHAT ABOUT HER?
IT STILL HURTS
CHEST PAINS JUS DRIVING ME BESERK
I WANT YOU BACK BUT
I CANT LEAVE HER FOR YOU
AS MUCH AS I WANT THAT
ITLL BE LIKE IM TAKIN A STEP BACK
AND SHE IS A REAL NICE GIRL
NEVER BEEN HURT
AND I REFUSE TO DO THAT TO HER
SO IT HURTS
KNOWING THAT U LOVE ME
BUT YOUR CHOSIN HIM
BUT IMMA
DIFFERENT PERSON
BUT U DONT SEE THE CHANGE
COZ IM BROKE AND CURSING
ITS DAMN STRANGE
SHE KNOWS THIS BUT STILL LOVES ME
AND I LIKE HER BUT LOVE YOU
EVEN THOUGH YOUR LOVE IS MATERIAL
HERS.............SPIRITUAL
MAYBE ONE DAY IT WONT HURT ANYMORE
BUT I KNOW IM LYING TO MYSELF
AND THAT JUST HURTS MORE AND MORE