I didnt have the capacity or knowledge to do meaningfull ba**lines back then. So that's probably what i dont like about my old stuff. But they were special to me, i have fond memories of all those beats. I.e the day, i made them, how i felt afterwards, the emotion.
At the time, locally, my bench mark was Draztik, Infa, Xamount, Snazz D. They were making beats that i felt were doper and i was just trying to get to their level... At that the time internationaly i was tryin to get to cats like mphazes, styalz, soleternity, ant ill acurate, don cannon illmind, etc, coz these dudes were already churning out monster beats on mp3.com back in 2000/2001. So i have an 8year history being fans of guys that people have only recently started embracing.
I feel i could've been at that level too. But the local industry killed my pa**ion and ambition. Now suddenly i had to make beats to prove points that im good, and the fun got sucked out of it. It was uneccesarily competitive, the industry is built so that only one person can be hot at a time. When in actual fact there is space for everyone. The states has space for dre, primo, alchemist, cool n dre, kanye west, scott storch etc. Same situation in France and Germany etc.
But SA'S industry is unecesarily competitive. I came out and media made it a battlekat or me situation, or whoever and whoever. It killed it for me and i buckled under that pressure, especially after my brothers death.
