You have to account for y'all f*** ups...go face the peeps who will neva trust u again, get over it while u still can, even if u hide behind the bottle the trust is still gone, and that ain't a smart move besides... If u r fam and "soulmate" really love u, they will find it in their hearts to forgive u... If they don't forgive u, don't take it to heart, they are human beings cotdamit and got emotions, so u better be prepared to deal with that...in the wise words of Mos def; "fear not of man"...