I was diagnosed with depression about a month ago, not really manic or anythin, but it's been going on for a bit longer than that.
The thing is I never thought I had a 'problem' until a few anxiety attacks later, throwing up all over the place
then I decided to see my doctor.
It's been a bit of an uphill climb for me since I finished my matric in 2006, I won't get into the details but I have reason to believe that this where the stress, uncertainty and shit started settling in. I broke up wid a girlfriend about 6 months ago but that has nothin to do with the depression (I know what ur thinkin) it was on good terms
I've been living this fatigued and 'derealised' reality for a bit now, it's like a side of me is just numb...inanimate, I dunno...like i'm alseep though I'm awake. Doesn't make sense but yeah, on some zombie type shit
I put my studies on hold cuz I couldn't really concerntrate on what I was doing, hell I still can't sometimes.
I really wana see a shrink, or even better, a hypnotist...but their charges r f***in silly, I just finished my prescribed antidepressants today...
anyway..yeah, just wanted to get that off my chest. I know it's incoherent but i just started typing impulsively...I don't expect therapy from yall or anythin, just that most of my friends r already out of town on holiday...and I don't spend time with my family,
just my lil brother...and I'm particularly bored this afternoon, the bottle is not an option...neither is weed so I'mo watch a movie
thanx for reading, if ur as bored as i am